I chose to.

The reason is I don't want anyone to find out.

That's why I'm always distancing everyone.

I don't want them to see the awk me.

Good first impression.

But it won't ever last.

The ominous wind on 23rd April.

The lightning volts on 2 May.


Scary shit.
Guess time's running out.

Oh the dream is still there baby! :)

Does the ignorance hurt you?

I really love you with all my heart,seconds before you announce our break-up.
For you to end our relationship abruptly,it left a big hole in my heart and in my soul.
I still remember that day.
It was the first time I was late for work.
My mind was buzzing and my heart hit rock bottom.
I was lost and confused.


That's when I came to a conclusion to the initial reaction.
And I stood with my conclusion till now.


I don't care if you are now a model or shit,I don't want to see your face ever again.
Don't get me wrong.
What I did is for the best for both of us.
I just want to erase that part of history when we are together.
Totally forgotten in a part of my life.
There's virtually no experience I gain seriously.
It's like a wasted confluence of time,effort,emotions and feelings


And if we were to ever cross path again, treat me as a normal bystander.
Don't harbour any ill-feelings please.
Just ignore me.

But then again.
Who knows?
If by fate, we cross path unexpectedly and need each other in completing a task.
Maybe we'll be friends again.


But for now.
Sorry yaney, I'm gonna totally wipe the memory of you.
Take care and please don't worry about me.
I promise I'll be strong alrite? :D


.
..
bye

To equate the capacity of the human mindset, one have to consider the experience's and jargon's of one's personal well being and the state of their mindset. Something that stand out in the mind will be consider desirable even though it's tacky to most but for some weird reason the eagerness and acceptance of opening up to that tacky individual is more likely than opening up to a sensible and safe person who wishes to avoid any weirdness in their life or appearance. So in a way all those tacky or weird individuals get all the thing that is desired by most normal man or what we call AFCs. (Average Frustrated Chimps). Chimps in detonating that we ourselves evolve from one. Average as in everyone of us and frustrated in not getting that thing that tacky individuals always get. So to get hitched, one should be like a black, wear bling-bling or really accessorize something that is tacky,stupid which stand out from the rest. Even stupid love sunglasses or afros that look like bush. For some weird reason unknown even to scientist, the opposite sex will be magnetted to these weirdos no matter how ugly they look and thus a union is start where one see so many douchebags out there who look weird with a stunning partner.



I'll bet you guys don't get it.

A stranger stabs you in the front;
a friend stabs you in the back;
a girlfriend stabs you in the heart,
but best friends only poke each other with straws.





I admit.
I really sucks at maintaining friends.
It's just that my life is filled with so many cocktail friends.
These cocktail friends assume I have an active social life.


But in reality I don't.
In reality, due to my childhood,I find it hard to trust anyone.
I always expect people to stab me in the back or say bad things about me.



Other than that,I love to be a low profile or ignorant kind of person...which I can't put others to think that way.Even according to one of my close friend, there's something about me that people just cannot ignore. There's something about me that people either love or hate.



Oh well.
Better put this something to good use. :)

Despite being an old song, I'm like so addicted to The Killer's "Jenny was a friend of mine.
Gosh,I'm such a sucker to passionate emotional kickass rock song which actually have a nice melody vibe to it.



Anyway.
Hibiscus tea mission.
Succeed! ^__^

Next up.
Dr Pepper!